Hopewell

and also
i am not visually oriented:
my hands shake like a presidential candidate's
and my memory of shapes and colors
plays by its own rules, which are not
so much abstract
as uninspired.
i am also not auditorially oriented,
and i find a carefully orchestrated silence
to be the best part
typically.
Which may mean I am on to something,
but it's hard for me to set a goal
of doing something amazing and affective
with nothing.
I would prefer to have an impact
(in some ideal over-the-horizon future)
on something internal and intangible and tangible
but that is not visual, and that is not substance,
and I fear I am approaching a sense that is
not real,
and encroaching into the realm of Science Fiction
and goddammit
that is not what I want to do
and again it has gotten away from me
and I will end with a thought:
the city and the trees.